Shaving ????

I first started shaving my when i first started getting hair becuz i didnt know, after a while i stopped but recentley i hav been curious and my hair was getting very anouying. so i shaved some of it off the other night but it got really itchy so i shaved it all off. now it looks grosse. iv neva liked my "down stairs" and im scard that wen i do loose my virginity that they guy is going to think im a freak for having an ugly or something i dont no. im too scared to ask my sisters or anyone i no and i am just so unsure about myself. some1 help plz